6.19.2016

Deal part 10

Nicki's P.O.V



It was half past seven when my alarm went off. I woke up and stretched, looking around me I realised I wasn't in our room and last night's events replayed in my mind making me both angry and sad again. I grabbed my phone and checked my messages and social networks, there was nothing interesting there so I texted the girls to see if we could try and make lunch today, I had to fill them in on what happened yesterday. Once that was done, I got up from the bed and made my way to the ensuite bathroom and started getting ready, last night I had made sure to get everything I needed for today, to avoid having to face Aubrey.



I hate to be this childish but right now I just can't. I need to be away from him, last night was chaotic enough and I don't need a remake of it, I just need to stay away from him until I cool off, then maybe we will be able to have a normal conversation and sort this whole thing out, given how angry I am right now, a conversation would be useless and would make things worse, I already feel bad enough for what I said last night. I was so angry and hurt by what India told me that I just felt like hurting him and I said things I shouldn't have said just to get back at him. Now after thinking about it I feel awful for that but I am not any less angry so I know I could say worse, that's why I'll just avoid the man, I just hope he doesn't get stubborn and that he'll let me breathe because otherwise I know I'll snap.

Once I had gotten out of the shower, I did my hair and make up as usual and went to get dressed, I put on the outfit I had gotten out last night. Once I was ready I checked the time once it was a little bit after 8:30, by now Aubrey must be gone. I grabbed my phone and went to our room to go get my laptop and my shoes, there was no sign of him there except for the messy bed of course. I took what I needed and walked out to go downstairs and grab something to eat. When I got downstairs I dropped my purse, coat and shoes at the bottom of the stairs before making my way to the kitchen where to my great disappointment Aubrey was peacefully sitting having breakfast. When I saw him there, I just wanted to hug him and forget about it all, but I didn't let it show and walked in the kitchen ignoring his presence. I was planning on having a full breakfast today but I'm not willing to stay here in the same room as him with all this tension so I made my way to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of Arizona, then I walked to the breakfast bar where he was sitting observing my every moves and I took two of the waffles that were on display and grabbed an a banana before making my way out of the kitchen.

"Enjoy !" I heard Aubrey call after me as I was going to put my outwear on, I swear that man is really trying me right now, he's gonna act like he didn't stay home later than usual just to make sure he could see me before leaving, on any other day he would have been at the hospital like an hour ago. 

Once I had my coat and shoes on I grabbed my purse and my Macbook bag and walked my way towards the door, I walked out of the house knowing Aubrey was watching me, I could see him standing there with his arms crossed over his chest. I made sure to slam the door shut before making my way towards my car. Granted this was very very petty but I was mad and he wasn't making it any better standing there taunting me.



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It was almost lunch break when I decided to check my phone which I had ignored all morning. I saw that the girls had texted me back and we agreed on having lunch together, I also noticed text messages from  Aubrey and a missed call from India, I deleted Aubrey's text messages without even reading them and decided I'd call India later on. I don't know what she can possibly want from me. She is the most enigmatic person I've ever met. Maybe her brother or rather her ex-boyfriend is sending her to talk to me. Either way I don't even know if I really want to hear whatever it is she has to say to me, only reason why I'm even considering talking to her right now is because it seems like she does better at telling the truth than Aubrey does. Anyways I guess I'll just wait and see what she wants.
I put my phone back in my purse and got to my last class of the morning.



"Sooo .... What happened ? I know you didn't call us for no reason." Ashley asked stuffing french fries in her mouth.

"Right, and that look on your face says it all, what's up ?" Ariana asked, I turned my head towards Amber and she gave me a nod, confirming that she was thinking the same thing. I put my glass down and started talking.

"So yesterday, Aubrey and I went over to his parents' house because he promised his nieces he'd drop by. So we got there and after hanging out for a while, he received a phone call from the hospital so he had to leave and his mother insisted on me staying there so I stayed." I started telling the story as my mind went back to the day before's events.


"Had Aubrey been here,  he would have been going crazy! " India laughed and I had to laugh too. She was right, those stories Mama Sandi has been telling today are just too much, if I wasn't so busy laughing, I would be ashamed for him.

"He'd be going crazy." I laughed. 

"Definitely. He has always hated that. I remember even back when we were kids she'd pull out that stupid photo album we both hate so much, and show ridiculous pictures of us to all of our friends. Matter of fact, I think I know where it is, let me go find it. " India spoke getting up and walking away. I really don't know what to think about her. I really thought she wasn't being sincere last time we talked, but right now after spending part of the day with her I feel like she is being genuine and I have a feeling I was clearly seeing the wrong where there wasn't any reason to, it doesn't seem like she has malicious intentions after all, maybe Aubrey was right and she is just a bit clumsy with the way she goes about things.

Just a few minutes later India walked back in the room holding a few photo albums in her hands, she walked up to the couch I was sitting on and took a seat next to me. She was sporting a bright smile as she opened the first album and started flipping through the first pages. 

"Oh my god, look at that one." she said pointing to a picture on which Aubrey was standing facing the camera while making a stupid face. 

"My baby was so cute !" I heard myself cheese looking at the picture. 

"Don't tell him I showed it to you, he would kill me if he were to find out I let you see that."

"I won't... Aww you guys were mad cute." I said looking at another picture on which we could see both India and Aubrey smiling at the camera, seemed like they were in high school or like their first year of college at the time.

"Oh, I remember that picture, Michael took it, it dates back to when Aubrey and I were dating." She said smiling wild as she stared at the picture. When the words left her mouth I had to take some time and let them sink in, I wasn't quite sure I had heard her correctly, did she just say that her and Aubrey dated ? 

"When you guys were dating ?" I asked to make sure I had heard correctly.

"Yep, we used to be so in love." She spoke with a smile as she was still starring at the picture. I could feel a knot form in my stomach and as I tried to speak,the words got caught up in my throat. And I guess she could tell something was wrong.

"Don't tell me you didn't know about Aubrey and I !" She said suddenly jumping up a little bit and covering her mouth with her hands. 

"I..I... Didn't know, he never mentioned it." I struggled to let out, really I was just trying not to let my tears roll down my cheeks. I might be overreacting, but right now I just feel betrayed. Not because they dated I don't know how many years ago but because he lied to me, because I'm just finding out about this now and from her, because I'm sitting here looking like an idiot when he could have told me. 

"I am so sorry, I really thought you knew, I mean... " India started apologizing.

"Don't be sorry. I would've found out one way or another." I shrugged trying to make it seem like it was nothing.

"No, but I shouldn't have said anything. I shouldn't have opened my mouth. I feel so bad right now." India started rambling with a desperate look on her face.

"You have no reason to, it's not your fault he didn't tell me. He's the only one to blame in all this, besides it's not that big of a deal, I swear, what's in the past is in the past right ?" I said trying to reassure her but mostly it was me I was trying to reassure. Now that I have this informattion, it changes my views on everything. I mean may be something still is going on and it is all going on before my eyes. Since she came back they've been seeing each other alone, a lot. If it wasn't diner, it was lunch, she'd drop by at the hospital, he'd go see her after work. And here I was saying nothing. Maybe I'm just tripping but then why would he hide such a thing from me ?

"Oh yeah, yeah, most definitely ! It's far behind us. What we had was deep, and it was hard letting go of it but after distancing myself and being away for years I can say that it is behind us and that I've gotten completely over it yeah. It's in the past." India said giving me a reassuring smile but it didn't work, it's pretty obvious that she was trying to convince herself more than she was trying to convince me. The girl still is in love with him and that's pretty obvious. Does he know ? Did he realise she was still in love with him ? Maybe that's why he didn't tell me anything about their relationship.

"Alright then it's nothing we have to stress out right ?!" I said trying not to let my emotions out. 

"Right, you know I'm glad you're taking it like that. You are amazing for that." India said looking up at me. 

"It's normal." I had the time to let out before she threw herself in my arms, after a brief hug she let go of me.

"Erm, since he didn't tell you, I guess I have to tell you, no one in the family except for Ryan knows about this so if you don't mind.."

"I'll keep my mouth shut." I smiled kindly.

"Thank you." She mouthed as Sandi walked back in the room. 


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"She let that out on purpose, no doubt." Amber said stuffing french fries in her mouth. 

"I don't think she did. She felt so bad. No, I think he just played both her and I, and we were so busy at each other's neck that we didn't even realize it." I answered shaking my head.

"Nika stop acting like you really believe he's been cheating on you." Ashley spoke before bringing her straw to her lips and rolling her eyes at me. I balled my napkin and threw it at her. 

"No but she's right, you have no reason to doubt him like that, you know damn well nothing's going on. Or else you wouldn't be sitting here." Ariana spoke looking at me.

"I know." I answered looking down at my plate knowing I was probably just making a big deal out of something that wasn't even that big of a deal. 

"Right." Amber started. "But hey, don't you think it's weird ?" She carried on.

"What's weird ?" I asked confused.

"I don't know just everything about the way she broke it to you. I got a feeling the girl ain't that innocent." Amber said.

"Thank you, I wanted to say it but I thought y'all would say I'm delusional again." Ashley said.

"Y'all think she let the info out on purpose ?" Ariana asked, her eyes as widely open as mine were.

"Well I wouldn't be surprised. Seems like the type of thing she would do." Amber said and Ashley agreed. I threw a quick glance at Ari, only to see she was shrugging in agreement. I don't know why it didn't even cross my mind, it actually really seems like India's type but at the same time I don't see why she'd do that to Aubrey. Besides it's just too easy to go in that direction and take the blame from him.

"Anyways, it don't matter because no matter what her intent was, he should've never lied to me about that or hid it from me or whatever you want to call it. She might be sneaky and all but at least she told me the truth." I answered standing my ground.

"Yea, well, what do you plan on doing ?" Ashley asked rolling her eyes at me.

"I don't know." I shrugged. "I just need to cool off and then we can talk about it and squash it." I answered and they all shook their heads at me lord knows why. 



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After class I was at the girls' house, sitting in the living room with Ari and Ashley, Amber was supposed to be here but she's gone I don't know where and didn't even cared to call or anything. Ari, Ashley and I were just chilling while watching a random movie, we were all tired from our days.

"Nika, when are you leaving, it's already dark outside." Ariana asked me.

"Why are you trying to throw me out like that ?"

"I'm not throwing you out, just saying, it's dark outside and maybe you should leave now, I just don't want you driving in the dark, that's it." Ariana answered throwing a cushion at me.

"Ok, well thanks for caring, but I'll be good don't worry." I answered.

"We know you just don't want to go home and face the drama, but you will have to face it sooner or later so get your pretty ass up out of here and go make up with your man. This is all becoming ridiculous." Ashley said gesturing for me to get up.

"I am not ready just now. I'm still pissed off."

"Girl, you better get up and take your ass to your man," We heard Amber shout form the doorway, we hadn't even heard her getting in.

"What do you even want?" I asked throwing a cushion at her the moment she stepped in the room.

"I want you to get the hell out of my house." Amber spoke picking the cushion and throwing it back at my face.

"This my house too Amb."

"Was, now Aubrey's palace is your dreamhouse Barbie so get your ass of my nice couch and go back to him."

"Why would I do such a thing? I hate him" I answered even though when the words left my mouth, I almost regretted pronouncing them.

"Seriously?"

"Well maybe hate is a strong word." I spoke and the girls all laughed.

"No but seriously, you should get back home to him, before he starts getting angry as well and this whole thing blows ou of proportion." Ashley advised and the girls all agreed with her on that.

"OK, fine, I get it, I'm out." I said getting up and going to get ready to leave. I might have been somewhat annoyed at the fact that they were right but at the same time, I was so happy to have them and that they cared and advised me like that.

"Bye bitch!" Ariana shouted behind my back as I was putting my shoes on. After shouting goodbye in my turn, I made my way out of the house and got in my car and drove off, the ride back home seemed way shorter than it usually does. I didn't even have enough time to sort out what I'd say to him when I got there that I already found myself standing behind the front door, I fished my keys from my purse and used it to unlock the door. It was dark, but I could see that the kitchen's lights where on. I took my shoes and coat off and placed them in the doorway closet before making my way into the kitchen almost sure I'd find Aubrey there but when I got there the only person that was in there was the chef. 

"Hi Louis" I spoke and he rose his head from the food he was getting out of the oven which by the way smelt amazing, this man sure knows his craft.

"Good evening madam." He answered with his french accent.

"Louis please we already did that, don't call me madam you know I hate that and you can loosen up it's just me." I shrugged, he knows I hate when he does that.

"Sorry, professional habit." He said focusing back on the food."

"It's ok... Erm Louis?" I called and he nodded towards me to let me know he was listening.

"Where is he?" I asked and Louis repressed a chuckle, he might have noticed that Aubrey and I got into it and I must admit I've been acting like a spoilt teenage girl.

"He is upstairs, he told me a few minutes ago that he was going to bed and asked for me to make this for you." The chef answered pointing at the food that he was about to put up on a plate. 

"Don't bother Louis, I'll take it from here, thank you." I spoke letting him know that he could leave. After saying goodbye to him, I made my way upstairs to find Aubrey, he was probably somewhat uspet as he went to bed without eating but at the same time he couldn't be that upset since he was caring enough to ask the chef to cook me something to eat.

When I got upstairs and in the room,I was suprised not to find Aubrey there but then I heard the shower running so I figured he was in there. I went in the bathroom to get a hair tie and wrapped my hair up in a bun before getting back to the the room, I was making my way towards the closet when I noticed Ice sleeping on the bed, he was even under the covers which was weird considering how much Aubrey hated having him even in the room. I shrugged it off and let him sleep, I went to the closet and got undressed before putting my robe on, I tied it and proceeded to get all I needed to get in the shower. I was planning on using another bathroom since Aubrey was occupying the shower already but as I was getting out of the closet, he was just getting out of the shower and walking in the closet which caused us to almost bump into each other.

"Hi!" Was all I found to say, for some reason I was feeling ill at ease as if I was in the wrong when clearly he was in the wrong but at the same time,I can own up to the fact that I was wrong for acting so childish and for what I said out of anger last night.

"Hi." He answered coldly and walked passed me to get in the closet leaving me standing there, stunned. I don't know where he's got that resentment and attitude from but I do know he shouldn't be showing any of that because I am the one who should resent him and have such an attitude I am the one who was lied to. I got a right to be pissed, he doesn't. Anyways I headed to the shower, I really did need to take a good shower and calm down, I was calm before but with what he just did he just angered me again.

The shower did calm me down somewhat, when I got out I was ready to put my guns down and make peace, I put on my tank and shorts and as it was cold I also put on knee high socks and an over sized sweater I found in my closet, I know it's one of Aubrey's though.

When I got in the bedroom he had vanished again, I wanted to go look for him but then I decided against it, after all he'd come back to the room at some point. I plopped on the bed which awoke Ice who was sleeping. He stirred and started turning around in the bed getting lost in the covers, he started panicking when the covers got over his head, it made me laugh, I helped him out from under the covers, when he saw my face he seemed to be giving me a smile, you never know with that dog, he's just like his father.

"Hi baby." I spoke to get a reaction from him. He heard my voice and almost jumped at my face, and started licking my face.

"STOP! Ice stop!" I had to forcefully pull him off me and restrain him down on the bed as he was so excited.

"Well at least, someone is happy to see me." I said jokingly and at the same moment Aubrey was walking in the room and of course he took it the wrong way.

"Oh so now I 'm supposed to be happy to see you because we're on speaking terms now?" He spoke as he went to plug his phone.

"Why are you even acting angry? I'm the one who is supposed to be mad here." I spoke getting defensive, I was calm earlier but that tone of his angered me.

"Oh please. Stop acting like a kid would you?" He turned around to face me and I didn't know what to say so I got up and tried to walk away but apparently he wasn't having it. He grabbed my arm and turned me around.

"Come on Onika, stop acting like that, seriously you're getting me worked up for no reason, let's sit down and talk, like adults." He spoke firmly, almost as if he was giving me an order.

"I'm sorry for being petty like that, but I'm just very upset Aubrey, I still can't believe you lied to me."

"I know, I'm sorry about that, I don't want you to think that I actually enjoy lying to you and whatnot, I wasn't trying to be manipulative or I don't what you imagined in that little head of yours, I was just scared of your reaction, I was afraid you'd react like this." he said pointing at me.

"I'm reacting like that because of the way I found out, not because of the information itself, had you told me yourself when I asked you, I wouldn't have reacted like that,  I don't care about what happened between y'all, but the fact that you lied, it's like you have something bigger to hide, and even if it's not the case, how am I supposed to trust you, if you keep doing such things." I explained better than I thought I could.

"I guess you're right, I was wrong for hiding this from you and lying when you asked me about it was even worse, I get that, and I can apologize for that, I sincerely regret it, I should have told the truth and came clean but I didn't, I didn't and as much as I want to, I cannot go back in time and tell the truth so I need you to forgive me and allow us to move on from this, trust me I've learned my lesson, I won't keep nothing from you and I won't lie to you ever again either." He seemed honest as he spoke, I could definitely trust him and I did trust him. I just don't want him to think that it is as easy as that, he can't just say that he is sorry and expect me to forget all about this as if 'sorry'erased it all.

"I'm willing to forgive you Aubrey, but don't expect me to fully trust you yet, this whole thing might seem like nothing, but I can't get over it that easily, it really affected my trust in you." I answered as I finally sat down on the bed, he sat next to me and grabbed my face as he usually does.

"I promise, I won't give you any other reason not to trust me alright?" He asked and I nodded.

"You know I love you right?" he inquired and again I nodded.

"And I love you too." I spoke smiling at the huge smile that graced his lips as soon as I said that. He brought my face closer to his until his lips caught mine. We shared a tender kiss before he let go of my face.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked and he nodded.

"Yeah go ahead"

"I know I just said I don't care about what happened between you guys but I'd just like to know, what type of relationship did you have with her was it like a deep thing or just a fling?" by asking that question I was actually trying to know f I could put this whole thing to rest or not, if his answer matches what India said to me then it's all good, I can let this whole thing go, but if it was different then, I don't know whether he just made me a fake promise or she is up to something, either way I'll have to get to the bottom of this situation.

"Well, it wasn't a fling but it was something closer to that than to an actual deep love relationship. Of course I love India and of course I loved her at the time but it was never a romantic love, what happened is we were so close, we didn't even understand what it was and we took that fraternal love for romantic feelings and we tried it but we soon realized our mistake and we called it quits. That's it." He explained with a shrug. As much as I wanted to trust him, I was torn between his version and India's, I don't know who I should believe, I decided not to say anything, and lead my own investigation, which made me think, I'll have to call India back. But right now I'd rather not say anything, I'll keep all this to myself and try to solve it all when we come back from the Bahamas, I don't think we need that kind of energy when around his whole family, I bet they already will have a lot of negative things to say when we tell them the truth I don't need to add more negativity.

"Anything else you want to know?" He asked me snatching me out of my thoughts.

"Nope." I spoke and reached up to kiss his cheek.

"Great now come give daddy some sugar." He said wrapping his arms around me to pull me closer to him, and in a way that I was laying on top of him.

"I don't think so, I'm going to feed myself." I said getting out of his arms, he's cute and all but he's got to wait, that food Louis made just seemed so yummy, I can't let that be micro waved tomorrow, I got to go eat now.

"Why you gotta be mean like that." He shouted from the bed, as I walked away, and Ice who was sitting at the foot of the bed got up and started to trail behind me.

"I gotta eat nigga, and I bet you didn't feed my baby." I could tell he hadn't just by the way Ice was excited while we made our way towards the kitchen. I didn't get any answer and happily continued to go to the kitchen, in that moment I was happy we had made up, I got to admit I can't imagine us being mad at each other for a significant amount of time, I don't even know if I could have taken one more day, but at the same time I couldn't be totally content because there was still that huge question mark. I needed to know what exactly happened between them.





Drake's P.O.V



I'm glad this whole situation is dealt with, it was really stressing me out, I had a shit day because of that, Onika might be the only person who can drive me crazy like that, I can't believe how much it affected me that she was mad at me just for one day, just the idea of loosing her had me so worried. I never knew I'd love a woman like that. Besides I could never forgive myself if I were to lose her for such a dumb mistake, I definitely need to listen to myself more, how could I be this stupid. Though I was happy Onika and I had managed to talk this through and solve the issue between us, there is still one thing I don't get, why would India let out this info when she is the one who talked me into keeping this whole thing to myself, and why haven't I been able to reach her all day. I hope she doesn't think I'm mad at her. I hope this thing doesn't turn out to be something bigger because I already have a lot on my plate. I promised Nicki I'd take advantage of the fact that everyone will be here during this family trip to tell the truth about our relationship but honestly right now,I don't even know if I'll be courageous enough to do so, I love Onika so much and I know I owe this to her, I know I need to free her from that Nicole character I created myself for her, but I just don't know if I'll have the courage to disappoint everyone in my family mostly my mother, I don't know how she'll react exactly but I know for sure that she'll be sad and disappointed and that something will break between us. What also scares me is the way they will look at Nicki after they find out the truth, I know she's strong but I still don't want her to hear mean comments about her, and I don't want to hear them myself because Lords knows what I'd be able to do. I decided to lay back on it and try not to think about the worst. We would find out very soon anyways.



The next morning, Iwoke up with Onika in my arms, which felt amazing, it might have been not more than one day but I really hated waking up without her close to me yesterday and I do wish this doesn't happen ever again, I wanted to get up and go take a shower as I had to get to work but instead I just laid there admiring her, I was busy studying her features when I felt her hand move to my cheek, at first startling me as I thought she was asleep, she softly stroke my cheek while her lips curved into a smile even though her eyes were still closed.

"You really do need to stop staring Aubrey." She spoke with sigh finally opening her beautiful eyes.

"Can't do that,you way to pretty." I answered grabbing her hand that was on my cheek in order to kiss it.

"Pretty? That's all I am ?" She asked with a frwon snatching her hand from mine.

"You should be happy I even grant you that."  I mumbled,as she got out of the bed, but she still heard me.

"What was that?" She asked stopping on her wa towards the bathroom.

"I said you were the most gorgeous woman I had ever laid eyes on." I answered.

"That's what I thought."She said continuing on her way to the bathroom as I watched her walk away, lazily laying on the bed. I love mornings like this.

After a few minutes, I got up and went to get ready for work, meanwhile Nicki was getting ready for school and we made small talk.



"Why would you even have us flying in the middle of the night like that?" Nicki complained as I reminded her that the day after tomorrow we had to be at the airport at 1am.

"I wish we could leave earlier, it's just you know my shift at the hospital,besides, I have that  open-heart surgery to remember, we never what could happen, I'd rather stay there for the first few hoursafter it's done. " I explained to her.

"I understand. So thay will all already be there when we get there?" She asked cocking her head to the side.

"Yep, we will be the last ones getting there."I answered knowing where she was trying to get.

"It's gonna go just fine." I advanced, only half believing it myself.

"Now you know that's not true." She said in a defeated tone, she seemed just as defeated as I was, it's like we were fooling ourselves thinking it would go smoothly and now that we're actually about to face it all, we're realising it was all illusions and there is no way this can go well.

"How do you think we should go about it?" I asked and she shook her head at me.

"However you want, I just ask that we do it as soon as possible once we get there, if we wait too long then they'll feel even more hurt besides, I'll still be  all packed and stuff, makes it easier to leave." She shrugged,
I had to admit she was right about the fact that the longer we wait, the more pain will be caused but I hate that she thinks I'd let her go like that.

"Don't talk like that Onika, I'd never let you go anywhere like that. You're not leaving ok? They are grown adults and so are we, we can all seat and talk and get them to understand." I tried to reassure her but she didn't seem convinced at all.

"What if they don't understand?" She asked in a childlike voice. 

"Well then I guess, we are both leaving... Together." I answered though this idea breaks my heart.

"Aubrey don't be ridiculous please, you know you don't have to..." 

"I am not giving up on you Onika, I love you, I am in love with you and if that is something they are not able to understand then I don't see why I'd stick around. 

"That's your family we are talking about Aubrey, you can't say such things." She shook her head at me.

"Exactly that's my family so they should be able to understand that I love you and that I want to be with you, no matter what is your name right?!" I didn't even realise that I was starting to get angry and was almost screaming at her.

"Don't raise your voice at me Aubrey, I never asked for any of this and you know damn well it is all about way more than just a name." She spoke lowly almost emotionless.

"I'm sorry, I guess I'm just mad at myself for putting us in that situation, I'm just realizing now how much it can affect people around me starting by you and I hate it." I explained and she stayed silent she just looked at me without uttering a word.

"It's not like I can back up now anyways." I said as she let out a sigh and rose from the bed.

"Right, at that point we just need to do it, get it over with and then seewhat happens." She finally spoke wrapping her amrs around me, I returned the gesture, I had to hold her tight, to feel the closeness between us. I was just having this weird feeling, it was like something was compulsing me to hold her, like it might have been my last chance to do it before everything turned into chaos.

"Hey, I'm not gonna die from this Aubrey, I don't think they're gonna kill me." She joked barely making me chuckle, I could hear the tears in her voice, she was about to cry but once I let go of her and finally was able to see her face it was all gone.

"Don't look at me like that, I'm good." She smiled and grabbed my hand once again so as to walk me out of the room. We made our way down to the kitchen where she started cooking breakfast while we still talked.

After we had breakfast and grabbed our stuff, we left the house together, I drove her to school and then made my way to the hospital. On my way, I sent a texted India, to let her know that we needed to talk.

At one , after a major surgical intervention, I made my way to my office and there I found India sitting there in my chair.

"Glad to see you're still alive." I spoke up suprising her, she looked up at me with seemingly sad eyes.

"Hi." She let out lowly before lowering her head and looking at her hands.

"I'm so sorry Aubrey." She spoke getting up from her chair all of sudden finding the courage to look up.

"I don't know what happened, you know it just slipped, you know how I never think before speaking." She explained finally taking a breath and giving me time to speak.

"I'm not even mad at you India, it's not that big of a deal, we talked about it like adults and that's it we squashed it, I'm actually glad you let it out, that's a weight of my shoulders."

"You guys are good now?" She asked me with her eyes wide open as if she was surprised.

"Yea, why do you seem surprised ?" I asked.

"Nothing, it's just that I called Nicki yesterday to try and explain things to her, but he never picked up or called back, I thought she was super mad." She expalined with a shrug.

"She was, but not anymore,"

"OK. Great then, I'm glad everything is in order now," She spoke as she went to grab her purse.

"You're leaving already?" I asked her raising a brow.

"Yea, Spoons got me babysittng again, I have to go get the girls." She answered walking towards the door.

"Alright, have fun," I spoke waving at her.

"Hey Aubrey, do you think she hates me?" India asked walking back in the office.

"I'm sure she doesn't. Why are you askeing me that?"

"Well, you know how the girls want to see her and all, I thought I would give her a call and see if she wanted to drop by later."

"That is sweet of you, you should give her a call, she didn't tell me what she was getting up to after shool." I answered.

"Sure will, love you brother!" She spoke before slamming the door shut.



Nicki's POV



After my last class of the day, I bought a sandwich and headed to the library, I had Aubrey drop me off this morning and therefore I had no car to get back home and really didn't feel like taking the bus, therefore I decided to stay at the library, and do all the work I was given to do. Besides I was getting way too used to Aubrey helping me out with my assignments, doing it all on my own wouldn't do no harm.
I was in the mist of the researches I was doing in order to start on my paper when I felt my phone buzz, I din't even check the caller's ID, I didn't want people to start looking at me and complaining. I grabbed my phone and ran out of the room to be able to talk and I picked up quickly so that the person calling wouldn't hang up.

"Hello." I called.

"Hey." I heard a voice I immediately recognized as India's.

"Oh hi India, how are you?" I asked trying to make the conversation go as normal as possible, her silence let me know that she was somewhat ill at ease.

"I'm good. How are you?"

"I'm great thank you. I erm I dropped by Aubrey's office today, he told me y'all fixed everything, I'm glad to hear that and erm yeah, I'm sorry again, nothing should have happened in the first place, I should have kept my mouth shut." She started rambling, normally I would want to slap her accross the face but I'm starting to find this habit of hers super funny, the way she rambles when she talks, I even find her rudeness funny. I guess I'm starting to get what Aubrey sees in her.

"You're good India, I told you that already and I bet when you met with Aubrey he told you the exact same thing. Don't sweat it. It's over with, therefore if that's what you are calling to talk about we better hang up right now." 

"Ok ok, I won't talk about that anymore and I was actually calling about something else. I'm on my way to pick the girls up and I was wondering if you'd like to drop by whenever you're done with whatever you got to do." 

"Oh, I'd love that, I'm actually just taking advance on my homework right now so we could say I'm free as of right now, I just need a lift." I explained thinking I'd just call a Uber.

"Great, where are you right now?" 

"School." I answered.

"Ok, be by the pizza place right accross from the library's building, I'll be there in about ten minutes." She said, I totally forgot she is older than I am and attended school here as well.

"Ok, see you in ten." 

"Cool."! She said before hanging up. Pretty harsh but that's how she is so. I went back in the study room and packed all of my suff. Good thing that I was already in the library and not on the opposit side of the campus. That gave me the chance to go to the bathroom real quick.
Right at the moment I was making stepping out of the library I saw India's car rolling past me before stopping in the little park space in front of the pizza place, I jogged towards the car and hopped in. We greeted each otherbefore she put some music on and we drove to Spoons' house to go get the girls.

"Thanks for thinkiing about calling me." I actually was shocked that she'd even think about including me, but I was thankfull, I really did need to feel included somewhat with what I knew was to come.

"Well, actually, I knew the girls wouldn't let me breathe if you weren't with me since last time I promised them a day with you."

"Really, you're using me now?"

"Of course I am." She laughed as we pulled in Spoons's driveway.

We walked up to the front door and their father opened the door, he let us in and called the girls down; they ran down the stairs with their backpacks on their backs.

"Nickiiii." They screamed as they ran towards me, I was surprised to see how happy they were to see me, last time I thought they clung to me just because as kids they'd clung to the new person but hey I guess they really did take a liking to me.

"Hi ladybugs!" I said as I crouched down to take them kin my arms, after a while they greeted India as well and after talking to their father for a little while, India, the girls and I left the house, in the car we jammed to some BeyoncΓ©, the girls are just hilarious, they are little bundles of joy. We drove back to the Graham's estate, there we found Sandi who was happy to see the girls and to see me too, we stayed with her for a while before the girls decided they wanted ice cream, India and I took them to get some and after that we took them to play some arcade games, which was a lot of fun,

We finally decided to drive back to the Grahm's estate where the girls were spending the night.Not even half way tothrough the ride and the girls were fast asleep. Therefore India and I took that time to actually talk.

"How are you feeling about the family trip, I know you and Aubrey plan on revealing the truth while there in the Bahamas." India asked looking at me as the car came to an halt.

"Yea, I don't really know how I feel , I feel like it's gonna be a weight lifted off my shoulders but at the same time I can't help but think about the consequences and all I see is chaos." I answeredd sighing heavily.

"Well, I'm not gonna lie, I feel like it's gonna be chaotic too. I can already see it . He speaks his truth, dad gets angry, mom starts crying, you leave, he argues with everyone else and leaves as well, and then what? Then we're all in the freaking Bahamas, desperate as hell with mom who's gonna be crying her eyes out for the whole time and dad who's gonna be mad as hell. I don't know I just think it's selfish of Aubrey to do..." She ranted and after she was done speaking, the space just fell silent, I didn't know what to say to her, I felt bad because she was right, and putting this family through that was the last thing I wanted to do. I didn't have the time to form an answer that India had already started speaking.

"Oh my god! Did I just do that again?! I really need to start thinking before I talk. Nicki I really didn't mean to say this like that. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be mean." She apologized obviously feeling bad. But honestly she didn't have any reason to feel bad. She was right, it's different from when we talk about with Aubrey, I am tired of hearing him tell me that it is all going to be alright, I liked how blunt she was being about it all. Even though that makes me feel even worse.

"Do not apologize for saying what you think India, stop apologizing. Besides you are right, it's most likely how it's gonna go down." I answered and she took a breath.

"Ok so can I keep on rambling?! I was saying it's super selfish of Aubrey to do. I can't believe he would do that."

"Come on don't say stuff like that India, he didn't mean for any of this to happen, and neither did I but we both let it go this far, him and I we both let it go this far, it's not just his fault. Besides at this point it just doesn't matter who's fault it is. I am sorry that it's like that, but Aubrey and I we are about to hurt many people and I'll be the first to hurt."

"I know!" She cut me off.  "Trust me, I know there is no way this whole thing goes well and I know it's gonna hurt my family and I know you'll be hurt as well no matter when it's done. I know all of that. So what I don't understand is why now and not after, why won't you at least do us the favour to let us have this vacation and make the most of it?" I looked at her reddish face, it had turned that way as she was becoming so mad. She was right. I was about to break a family anyways so why not let them live that.

"You might actually be right. Maybe we should wait. I... I don't know. Truth is, we don't want to wait, you know it's like the more we wait, the more pain it'll cause. Besides, this whole thing is not gonna be working for long. It's not a life, I can't keep lying, I can't keep faking to be this person I'm not, at this point telling the truth is the only way Aubrey and I are gonna make it. Oh wait that's super selfish."

"It is but at the same time it's not." India answered.

"How is it not?" I asked confused.

"You were dragged into this, I know he didn't force you but still, you didn't want it." She said with a shrug.

"Yea, I didn't want it, but I'm still going to break y'all appart. You know I already ruined my own family because of my job, I don't want to ruin yours now."

"Well you know sometimes the best thing to do is to walk away." She said looking a head of her.

"What is that supposed to mean?" I thought out loud.

"Honestly, I have zero idea, seemed like something to say in this situation you know the kind of sentence you let out and sink in. You know me I never think before talking. Forget it." She said shrugging. I don't know if she actually said that like that or if dhe actually meant it. I mean it actually made sense. The best thing might be walking away. Maybe Aubrey and I should see the bigger picture here, there is something that's bigger than our love, how many people are we going hurt just so the two of us can feel somewhat better? Maybe walking away is the best thing to do.

After a few minutes of silent drive we finally got to the Graham's estate, India parked in the driveway and we both got out of the car and picked up one of the girls, we got them in the house and upstairs to a room. After laying them down we got back downstaires.

"Erm, I think I'm gonna head home now." I spoke as India just suggested we go watch a movie.

"You sure tou can't stay a little longer, at least until the girls wake up so you can say goodbye?" 

"No, it's getting late, I better get going right now." Truth is I really needed to be alone and think.

I ordered a Uber and after saying my goodbyes to India I left, during the ride, I kept thinking on wether it was a good thing or not to tell the truth about Aubrey and I's relationship and consequently hurt the people who were dear to him. Maybe it wasn't even worth it, maybe. What's the point in going through all this if as a result, I get rejected and our relationship end up being over. He can say all he wants, I know he loves his family too much to stand uo fir us in the end. At the end of the 30 minutes drive, I had made my decison and I was more than sure of what I was about to do.













5 comments:

  1. Ugh I can't stand India and now she keep putting bad ideas in nickis head and drake/India relationship may not seem that deep to him but deep to India because men and women view and deal with emotions and relationships differently

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  2. Oh man, I feel as if Nicki is going to leave to make everything better but it's not going to be better for Drake because Drake is going to be really sad. India does say things that just comes out but she actually has good points. I love this update and everything about it. I can't wait to see the next part. 😊😚

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  3. Oh man, I feel as if Nicki is going to leave to make everything better but it's not going to be better for Drake because Drake is going to be really sad. India does say things that just comes out but she actually has good points. I love this update and everything about it. I can't wait to see the next part. 😊😚

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  4. Pleaaaaaaaaaaseeeee post today I want it ahhhhhhh plizzzz post am obsessed with this story

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